Hello. I read former posts. Wow. Not too much changed. I would better say, really nothing (at least nothing significant) changed in the way of my thinking. although few of the words were too honest..

It's a good idea of having a spot to share thoughts. Even to share only with myself. One day I will be reading this, like I read few minutes ago what I wrote months even years ago!

A looot of things happened. But as I'm the person who don't like to look back without hm.. like an essential purpose, so i won't look back. I will say what IS. What really really IS.
Because only NOW matters. The only moment we really have.

Little bit more than a week ago I started the last semester before graduating as a clinical psychologyst. (I plan to do that in september). This were the most important school (understand as "knowledge") I've ever experienced. How amazing how important something can be. From the first day at my university I was growing. And I do feel I'm still growing. I learned a lot. Like really really lot.
This 5 and half years of my Life. I was loving, was loved, was cheated on and betrayed. was traveling, was studying hard with all the respect to the knowledge Beautiful People share with me. was making smiles and friends out of strangers met on the streets all over the world. This is the part which I love the most. Making friends out of strangers on the streets. It's a pitty Polish People are so not open to talk to stranger. But I try hard. :)

Thank you Psychology!
Thank you my Teachers!
Thank you My Dad! For supporting me every single second of my Life, while could see it, and while I was too blind to recognize.
Thank you My Mom! For showing me there exist people who has unlimited open hearts no matter what.

I do appreciate my Life so much.
I do Love my Life so much.
When I die. Please tell my Parents, I learned like a hell much in this Life and was very appreciatefull of every single experience. Of every single Smile. Of every single thought. At least I tried.
Please tell the I do not regret anything. I'm living with them right now. I was moving out before, also I'm always few months away from home every year, because I trave, but now I do stay with them. In my room. I didn't like that. They are people who we need deals in our Lifes. In their home need to be like they like. But now... I do appreciate. They are having every day coffee during evening. Very often I join. We sit together, we dring, we watch tv, we talk. So precious. This is so precious. I want them to know, but I do not know how talk to them some things. So please tell them...

I may seem so happy girl. I may seem so always positive. I may seem I always lift people around and make them smile because of my energy. No one word I created. Is dozens of people telling me that. sometimes every day. Honestly I do believe. I feel I'm in this world to be FOR PEOPLE. For World.

I've just written what was on my mind in present time. Maybe is without structure, but i wrote what's probably the most significent right now the most important. And I will know what I ment.

But if anyone will wander here. I have a message for you.

You are beautiful.
You are worth.
You are amazing.
Never forget to treat people the way you want to be treated.
Never forget to never hurt anyone feelings on purpose and try your best to not hurt anyone's feelings unconsious. If you know you will hurt and you cannot do anything, because your decision is what your heart tells you to do, just.. walk away....

I want to tell you more.... About Energy. But... There will be time for that.

Take care Beautiful People. Stay True.

Time is going somewhere beside me. Floating.
I'm walking following my path. Only forward.
I met my Life as a stranger. As a little inexperienced girl. As somebody greedy adventure.
I got some. I got every single day of my Life as a hudge sack of knowledge. Respecting with all my heart all of my teachers. Respect the most important people in my Life.

Canada.
I used to say my second home. I promised to never come back here again. And I came back 3 times after those words.
So don't say words Paula again, because they are just words.
Don't limit yourself.

People born stupid, but don't die stupid.
You met me stupid, you will never find me stupid again.

I'm in the Forest. I'm super extra out of myself. Flying somewhere forgot about my body.

But as ALWAYS I'm colecting. Colecting memories. colecting thoughts. colecting feelings. colecting impresions. colecting good words. colecting smiles. colecting touches. colecting LIFE.
And once I will be back. I will open the sack and let all go. Let go! Let spread! Let be! BE! Be free! Be beautiful. Be incredible. Be good. Be happy...


I always needed to be this good one.
I always needed to be this brave one.
I always needed to be this smart one.
This independent and involved one.
This beautiful.
This crazy and mature.
This one.

I chose that way. I'm happy.

Life is complicated. People are so difficult... I'm so ambiguous.
I'm black, white and grey. In one time.
I'm the cold, hot and perfect.

Everybody does.




Look. And smile. Another second of a Life. is happening... NOW

I'm leaving Guatemala City today.
I had a hard time in Latin America. Bitter-sweet Life.
We, with Ron, met many really good people. Who made us amazed and smiling. I'm thankfull to all of those people. They let us sleep in their houses, they work places. They bought us a meals, ice-creams, offered a water, gave us a lifts. If not they that trip would be not possible. They made our way going further with belief of a good world. World that every day is wort it to get out of bed.
We met also not good people. Who took all of our things. Who stole a hudge part of our Lifes. But they will never cause that we will forget about this part.

We shared our stories, even with the fact that I'm not too much sharing person last times.

Latin America will stay deep in my heart.


Every time ending means beggining.
And Life still will stay that way...

There is really no time for being upset. No sense for being angry.
You may loose the last important moments, because you will not notice, that they are just here, at your fingertips, on your doorstep.

I love Life. I feel Wind.
I want to be myself.
I want to feel free.
I want to make people smiling.
This are my purposes. Remembering all of the times when a stranger smiled at me when I had fucked up my mood. And made me smile back. Because how not to smile back...

♥

"this moment. here. now." ! ♥ ! ♥

/p.s. I won't forget you! u silly.

Found a way.

Is incredible how fast life is going. And how far.
Last days I'm studying all days long.
I'm studying Chinese culture and history. Confucius, Legalism (literally "School of Law") and others about Chinese military strategy that I have no idea how to name it in english language.
I'm studying about Buddhism and TAO.
Is enough. Is huuuudge sack of knowledge. My sack without a bottom. Never satisfied.
5 days. 5 read books. I'm proud.

Some time ago I made a decision. And now life keep me in this decision. Today I bought a ticket.
Plane ticket. My precious...
Life. Amazing life. ! Amazing beautiful Life!
How is possible that Life is so beautiful and so many people doesn't see it?


Mi querida amiga es en Kenya ahora.
Is amazing how much Life want us to be happy.
Love Life.

/ Warszawa

I really miss Toronto.
And I need to throw a coin.
/Józefów

Boom.

Every single thing can be a passion. Cooking can be a passion. Studying can be a passion. Taking pictures can be a passion. Growing plants can be a passion. Picking apples can be a passion. Looking at the clouds and sky. Hunting nights all over the world to see a shootingstars. Watching the washing-machine window can be a passion also. All of the passions are good passions. If they are not obsessions.

And my passion is Psychology. Traveling is my passion. Husking sunflower seeds and meeting people. Sharing with them my life. All what I do with a real pleasure, patience and real love.
I have some additions. but some of them are too intimate to tell about them in a first post... I can tell you about one of them.

I'm totally addicted to being around people.



















All the pictures on this site are and will be taken by me. All have its own special history. And all of them were taken with love. Wish you like it. Frosty morning. 22 oct 2011. I changed all my plans the day before in the afternoon. I was going to HH to see with a... I don't know who is he. But anyway I changed my plans. And decided to stay with somebody I met on my way.

As life shows us was it good decision or not. Bull shit. I'm not looking at shit like that. Just live my life.

This is my story..